I often reread this letter to you...tonight as I sat working on a book, a children's book and play I thought of you, and looked for this letter and wanted so much for you to be able to read it. You left us too soon, I remember getting the call the day before I was to see you that year on Mother's Day. I remember wishing that someone had called me the day before to let me know you were not doing well, and how I wished I could have hugged you and said one more time "I love you more" and seen your beautiful smile as you said it back to me...MORE! I will forever miss you, but I know that you were a wonderful influence in my life and that I carry you with me always.
I love you more Mamaw,
Dear Mamaw,
I can’t even tell you how many times during a week I think about you. I remember and share about the weeks I would get to spend one on one time with you in the summers. I remember all the things you taught me. Crocheting, when I was so young that I didn’t even know I shouldn’t be able to do it. I remember so many times creating creatures, doll clothes and so many other fun things without even a pattern…or before even knowing what a pattern was. I remember sewing lessons, quilting and so many other crafty things you taught me to do.
I remember the weekly shopping trips when I was visiting you in the summer, and how amazing I thought it was that the store clerks knew your name and were so happy to see you and help you with your needs. I remember the little gifts you would let me get at the local stores…especially a little tea set that I had for years.
I remember how every time I would walk into your house there would be something wonderful cooking or cooling and waiting for us to taste. I remember the way that you always made me feel so important and how I was always sure that I was your favorite grandkid. Actually several years ago when all of your grands were together we had a pretty heated discussion about how ALL of us thought we were the favorite!!
I remember holidays with all the family gathering at your home and how it always seemed like you were the glue that kept us together…and now that you are gone from us, I am more than sure that you were.
I remember even after I was “grown” the times that you were there for me sending me something I needed or just opening your home for an extended visit.
I want to thank you most for the example you set as a wonderful caring woman. Your life is an example of how one can live without complaining, without talking about others in a disparaging way and how when you are generous to others with love and time, you remain in their hearts forever.
For all these things and for all you were to all of us, I thank you.
~pam
