A message to the bullies in my life. Those who act like friends, but then when the opportunity shows itself for meanness you always show up. To those who pretend to be friends only to see my words and then use them against me. Poking fun at my beliefs, ridiculing that which I seek to accomplish and diminishing my dreams with others because you have no dreams of your own. This blog~erapy post is for you.
When you seek only to act with love, you find those who are loving. When you choose the path that is honorable and fulfills your personal mission, your steps become light and with a rhythm that echoes your heart. When you turn away from those who refuse to see your gifts, and at the same time you refuse to bow to their cruel taunting and jabs at your heart, you find a piece of yourself that is so strong, that no matter how hard they come, what mean words they use or stories they twist to fit the story which lies far from the truth, you become more sure of your truth.
I can only attract into my life that which I believe to be true. I still believe in bullies, wanna be impressers who stoop to cruelty to win favor. But your intentions are to undo and mine the opposite. So tear away because the world and I see you as you are....and wait while you create that which will only come back to visit you. Please keep attacking and seeking to pile against me, I only grow stronger, and everything is always working out for me. I will still be here when you pretend to be nice when no one is watching and I will cringe as your true venom is revealed in a group. Your integrity is non existent and you have lost the real part of yourself that would feel joy, accomplishment and peace. I am not angry, only hurt, but that will heal. Each time another brave soul seeks to be true to them-self you will lose your power because they will not be hammered into a version of their-self that suits you.
If you think no One hears your whispers and plotting then you are deaf. If you believe you intentions go unnoticed then you are mislead. If you think removing someone unjustly will somehow right your life-ship you are disconnected from the purpose of life. Smiling as those who sought to harm, discredit and disrupt, found that their schemes didn't quiet go as they had planned.
When will we ever learn that everyone has value, that someone gaining praise, does not mean insult to us? When will we ever be sure enough of our own place in this life that bullying those we perceive as weaker will be a thing of the past? When will we seek to honor life, instead of create hate?
Story after story recently has come to light. No one that I have ever known has been completely free from this horrible human habit. No one has ever seemed to be above it...even a time or two in my life I can admit I joined in. It does not bring me pride, only pushes me to find self forgiveness and seek to never let it happen again from me or another.
I accepted that not everyone is going to like me years ago, but often when the ugly shows up, it still does not go down easy. I guess I don't understand their dislike. If only there was a way to get them to say what their motive is. If only their words and actions would line up. If in their circle they could resolve their hate for others by acting to learn to love themselves. It must be a lonely lonely place to have so much hate inside for self that you learn only to hate others. It must be a horrible prison to see a viable use of your life account to waste the minutes hurting another human. A created life that is here for a purpose, maybe not unlike yours, or even as different from you as daylight to dark. But differences are the thing that makes life interesting, if you were all like me what fun would that be?
Can we just get along the famous words now that always bring a man named Rodney to mind. Like the current GREEN SHIRTS that scream " I am with Shea" or the single one that says "I am SHEA", why must we ever hear the horrible news of some other human treating someone as if they were less than. When we are all so much more than our physical appearance or challenges. When each person even the worse of any are here to teach us something. Why must we ever allow ugly bullying behavior to exist or go unpunished. I am waiting to hear the charges for those people who directed their meanness and a wonderful girl. I am so proud of her mom, for standing up. For giving it all she had to get the story told. For taking every opportunity to take this ugly super power of bullying and turn it into something great. A movement, a mass of green going after the offenders. But when they are caught, I hope we will refrain from becoming them. I hope we admonish them for their bad behavior, but then seek to be the voice of reason to help them heal and find forgiveness as well as a point in life to start over. We all deserve a second chance, even more if we learn a little slow how to live in peace, honor each other and grow with love.
I am hopeful to hear a best outcome for the story about SHEA, if you have not read it yet...you should. And then share any bullying story you have here and lets work on healing a few more hurts...ok?
