Lesson #6 No matter how much you care about someone...they may not care about you.

As I shared in one of the previous best lessons, I have gotten better and not having to have love or even good behavior in return from those I love .

I simply choose to love, no matter what others choose.

But recently I have had to step back from a few people that I dearly love. And to be honest, I didn't really step, I more like just shifted a bit.

It became a little more than obvious that a couple of friends were behaving a bit bizarrely. They had an almost paranoid reaction to everything that was going on in our circle. I don't really understand it, but I think I get a pretty good idea when I look at it through the eyes of the old me.

Jealous is a horrible phantom. When you are living in fear of losing someone, something or some self you behave in a way that makes you hard to be around. Your behavior becomes erratic and accusatory. You find fault with all those you have learned or decided not to trust. You begin to feel left out not because you are pushed away but because your behavior makes others uncomfortable. You spend time warning others about those who you are jealous of, and most of the time it is unwarranted. Anyone looking in from the outside would call you gossip, someone who is unable to let issues go, or even to work on them to resolve what pain you feel.

My lesson is to allow those who cannot grasp that we are all one and that we own no other person be in their cage of fear for as long as they choose. We are not guaranteed time or attention, and we should make our selves busy with doing the most good instead of controlling others for our own feelings.

BIG lesson for me, that sometimes when you are in line with what is right and comfortable and peaceful, those who cannot feel it will see it as something to run from. In the process they will turn away from you instead of working on their feelings and understanding that feelings are not facts.

Being insecure is all about those who feel it. Being at peace and allowing others to have joy, other friends and being happy for their happy is an inside job.

Getting myself settled and confident in my life allows me the privilege of being present in others lives for all that they will allow of me. Not feeling threatened or abandoned if their story goes another direction without me. If there was love and concern for each other then no manner of distance or change, changes that. Time is what we spend...and I am present for whenever those can give me some of their life~