Am I really that busy?
I guess I see my life as normal, I did raise five kids after all. There was always some activity, mischief or chore to be done. There was always some conversation, discipline or belief to work out. It was an amazing time in my life. I am surprised now how I don't really feel as worried about the outcome of all those years of struggle, mistakes and hamburger helper. My kids have turned out ok, and what issues they might or might not have cleared away from the attempted parental practice that I gave, well they will just have to figure out like I did.
Parents only get the understanding of what it means to be a parent after the work is done. We only understand fully what we could have done better after its too late to apply the knowledge. But the amazing thing about humans and our ability to be resilient is this...no matter the journey we still find out way to ourselves, everytime. Some do it in amazing and beautiful out loud and public living. Others in a small and intimate understanding that only a few are aware of. Some get it in their 30's, 40's or later, others don't pick it up unitl they are checking out.
Doesn't really matter, its the outcome of all the living...and it is good.
I hear often, I can't believe all you do...and to be honest, I don't believe it either. I don't really sit down and say I am going to make myself busy. I don't have an agenda other than a few larger than life goals to help, support and make a difference. I don't want to collect achievements or another other proof of work that might or might not have gotten done. I just want to take full advantage of every opportunity in this life.
Sometimes the only opportunity I take on is the one to do nothing. I have moments where I check out and no one hears from me...not even facebook. I go to my room, or my favorite spots and just sit. I don't try to decide, understand or plan anything. I just listen to the world, nature, my breathing.
But again and again I hear them ask, "how do you do it"? the answer is always the same, first I say I am not sure what you are talking about...and then with clarification, I say I don't know either.
I know where the comments come from, but it's just my ability to be a bit wordy. I share, anything and everthing that I feel led to. I keep reminding myself and anyone who wants to hear that I have a mission...it is my desire to reach those who have it on their heart to help.
I love all the fun that my friends invite me to be a part of and the laughs alone give me energy to do more. I have been blessed with the most amazing people in my life...and I know how lucky I am. So if there is ever a moment when I can be around thier love and concern for me and our world...well I just find a way to be there.
I honestly think the biggest reason is that I don't live in fear of the sharing. I don't stress much over saying the wrong thing, becuase I speak my truth. I speak it for me, and for anyone who might want to hear it. I am an open book, and want to write a few. I hope that some of the things that I have come through might be a path for someone who is struggling with the same fights I have survived. I have found the understanding that we are all meant to be here, to find happiness and to value ourselves and the journey. I love that the messages that I get mean something to me, and hope that sharing it might mean something to others. I have survived the fear of being hated, the realization that not eveyone knows how to love and the glorious awakening of my truest truth.
I am responsible for it all. I get out of this life what i put into it. I am a piece of God's handiwork and my life has value. I can get the lessons or keep repeating them. I can run as hard as I can through each day or drift on auto pilot. I understand that my happiness is a choice. I accept that whatever is going right or wrong is because I believe it to be so.
I am that busy, but not in the way most think. The other day I thought I had a pretty short day, I had PLANNED on getting a few things done at the office and heading home on my regular short Monday schedule. But opportunities to share about my agency, my life and my heart presented themselves through a new friend....and off I go. I read a quote one time that life is what happens when you are making other plans. I totally agree. If I understand that my plans should be written in pencil and to keep my eraser handy, I am going to follow the map of opportunities that shows up, not just what the to do list reminds me of.
I recently was texting with a friend and the comment was made about living a more private life. And I wondered why? What is it about their life that they felt lead to hide away from the world that is here to give them all the same opportunities that I have. The ability to find friends that add joy and laughter to my heart. The chance to find and complete meaningful work. I guess I don't understand, but I am trying not to judge.
I can tell you this, on those days when I have written a blog to therapy my way through a problem, conflict or confession of humaness, I am grateful for all of the words that I find to share. I love taking the issues and putting them on paper...(electronically speaking) so that I don't have to carry it around any more. I love being able to say it is done and meaning it. I may never know who reads what I write, because many seem to want to keep that fact private as well...but to be honest I don't really write for anyone but me.
I share because I lived a life that was built to keep me quiet. To pretend like everything was perfect when nothing could have been farther from the truth. I give my time to things that are important to me becasue I want to be a part of it, and it matters. Nothing more is needed. I share what makes me smile in hopes someone else can grin about it too. I love how real my heart feels, and how authentic my life has become. I am not perfect, I am as busy as my opportunities will ask me to be and I am as happy as I decide I want to be.
I have no advice for anyone else. I appreciate that you admire my busy~ness. I love my life. I will not turn away from any opportunity that brings the yes from my heart. I will not regret anything I did or did not do. I will not stress that the laundry sits at home and on my chore list because another thing that resonated with my desires presented itself. I will never say I can't say yes to that because my dishes are still in the sink and waiting on me. I see there are a few challenges for me to work on personally. I have a few left over from the other life battles yet to blog~erapy away. But I am ok with taking the opportunities to get that done as they arrive.
I am feeling much anticipation for changes that are coming and opportunities that are already in the works. I am about to get a little busier...and am excited for the chance to try to get it all done.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
Words to build by!
Do not be discouraged at your humaness, and do not fear change or lessons learned. There will always be those who tear down, build anyway. There will always be those who take, give more anyway. Know that you are meant to be here, learn from imperfect moments and enjoy this life--focus on what you want to see and soon you will. Facebook post September 18th
All to often we let our mistakes define us more than our successes. We forget that it took hundreds of attempts before the first commercially produced light bulbs were available. We barely remember that safety on automobiles was an afterthought. Then of course many might have only seen a phone that hangs on a wall in a museum.
Those ideas of today that seem to come out every day are a culmination of the human spirit and creative juices allowed to run wonderfully rampant. I don't hear "it won't work" much anymore, not that it isn't said--I just don't hear it.
We as a progressive human expression of creative life have embraced change at a whole new level. Builders and designers and inventors are finding ways to make our lives better, more connected and more fun each and every day.
But they are also working towards embracing those moments of humaness to add a gentleness to our society. We, and I mean each of WE are not perfect. We cannot plan the errors out of our days, but we can learn from them. We cannot find a perfect employee, because there is no such animal. We cannot locate the patner without flaws, because we are all still very human.
But what we can do is to teach our children to embrace the human mistakes as opportunities to express their creative problem solving skills. And when the problem is solved, we can also help them embrace the art of forgiveness. Learning first to forgive themselves and then passing that gift off to others will change their reality more than any financial windfall. Learning how to be a graceful human will not only give their spirit a lesson in life...it will assure that their life expressions will be a gift to others all through out their lifetime.
Now when I say forgiveness of others most human moments, I do not mean to give abusers or users free reign in their reality. I mean being able to acknowledge that most mistakes and missteps are merely that. But when someones trampling of your daily life is habitual, it is time to allow that relationship to have a closing, that is also ushered on with forgiveness.
Forgiveness is a gift, most of all to the one who gives it. Because in releasing those angered feelings and moments of contempt for wrongs real or implied, allows the victim to become a victor. It shows that you are willing to move past the past and heal yourself, regardless of the pain. It also assures that you will always be moving forward. Harboring anger for big or even the smallest of mistakes is like taking poisin expecting it to make the person you are angry with sick. Most people who go about their lives creating harm, or dumping their mistakes on others are living such a selfish life that the impact to their feelings is non-existant no matter how angry you may be.
So as you are busy creating your life, allow a building of knowledge, of things, or of projects. Embrace the building of relationships, businesses, and lives. But also take a lesson in building bridges across those moments that seperate us. Those moments of "wish I had done better, but let me fix it now" and "wish you no harm because it was your turn to be human". We are building the world we will all live in....physically, emotionally and forgivingly!!
All to often we let our mistakes define us more than our successes. We forget that it took hundreds of attempts before the first commercially produced light bulbs were available. We barely remember that safety on automobiles was an afterthought. Then of course many might have only seen a phone that hangs on a wall in a museum.
Those ideas of today that seem to come out every day are a culmination of the human spirit and creative juices allowed to run wonderfully rampant. I don't hear "it won't work" much anymore, not that it isn't said--I just don't hear it.
We as a progressive human expression of creative life have embraced change at a whole new level. Builders and designers and inventors are finding ways to make our lives better, more connected and more fun each and every day.
But they are also working towards embracing those moments of humaness to add a gentleness to our society. We, and I mean each of WE are not perfect. We cannot plan the errors out of our days, but we can learn from them. We cannot find a perfect employee, because there is no such animal. We cannot locate the patner without flaws, because we are all still very human.
But what we can do is to teach our children to embrace the human mistakes as opportunities to express their creative problem solving skills. And when the problem is solved, we can also help them embrace the art of forgiveness. Learning first to forgive themselves and then passing that gift off to others will change their reality more than any financial windfall. Learning how to be a graceful human will not only give their spirit a lesson in life...it will assure that their life expressions will be a gift to others all through out their lifetime.
Now when I say forgiveness of others most human moments, I do not mean to give abusers or users free reign in their reality. I mean being able to acknowledge that most mistakes and missteps are merely that. But when someones trampling of your daily life is habitual, it is time to allow that relationship to have a closing, that is also ushered on with forgiveness.
Forgiveness is a gift, most of all to the one who gives it. Because in releasing those angered feelings and moments of contempt for wrongs real or implied, allows the victim to become a victor. It shows that you are willing to move past the past and heal yourself, regardless of the pain. It also assures that you will always be moving forward. Harboring anger for big or even the smallest of mistakes is like taking poisin expecting it to make the person you are angry with sick. Most people who go about their lives creating harm, or dumping their mistakes on others are living such a selfish life that the impact to their feelings is non-existant no matter how angry you may be.
So as you are busy creating your life, allow a building of knowledge, of things, or of projects. Embrace the building of relationships, businesses, and lives. But also take a lesson in building bridges across those moments that seperate us. Those moments of "wish I had done better, but let me fix it now" and "wish you no harm because it was your turn to be human". We are building the world we will all live in....physically, emotionally and forgivingly!!
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Thre are moments in life...
where you feel safe enough to just be, when you know the reason for struggles, and you feel an utter sense of grace....they need a check in button for that place!!! Its a great spot--been there a few times, most recently as now!! (facebook post 8-30-2011)
Two years ago I met a friend. She tells me often how great a friend I am to her. She is the type of friend that I can see her every day, or once a month and the emotion is the same. We have fun, laugh, act crazy and just generally have a freaking amazing time.
The first night we met was one of those moments of grace. I knew somehow our lives were going to be focusing on this first nigt. I knew that some part of the future was hinged around the conversation at that table when it seemed like no one else was in the room.
I have the utmost respect for her talents, her story, her life. I have the kowledge that no matter where I go or what happens in my life, she will be there...just a phone call away. She is a true friend. I can say anything, everything or nothing and the feeling is the same.
I do not fear that one day I will wake up and she will be setting about to undo me, that she will be working on taking something away. Every time she is in my physical presence it is an act of making my life better.
Her story which I won't tell much of here, is much like many of ours. There is joy, harship, pain and grief. There are children and jobs and family members driving her crazy all the while validating her existence. There are fights, wins and losses. And there are the moments in life....where she has been able to just be.
Two years ago when she and I met, I set myself on a mission to help her make her goal a reality. I have struggled, begged, pleaded and forced moments trying to make it happen. I have given her my ideas and suggestions and reached out to those I thought would be able to help. I have prayed and tried to find a WAY to make it work.
But only moments...no great success...just ticks on the clock and the return to just doing the next thing.
As the days have passed by and other people have come into my life, I began to see parts of the puzzle coming together, and I have often thought I will know. I will see a moment of clarity when all the pieces will be sitting at the table together and we as a great cohesive force will move the dream into the next realm of possibility. It just so happens that the table was round. And that 8 pieces of the puzzle that night were there. I soon began to understand that the reason things had not come together is because I didn't have all the pieces or even the right ones. I had to let some go, send some away and go and get new ones.And even though some of those original pieces are missing from time to time, the puzzle can still be whole.
The most amazing part of this story is this....we are all connected. We as a wonderful mass of human experience are all living moments when we can choose to participate, or be upset because it is someone elses story. We will have the priveledge to witness the great creative forces moving mountains to make the puzzle whole. There will be a recognition that all the visualizing and all the hopes and all the wrong moments have brought you forward to the very second where you are sitting and your puzzle is complete.
And even though you know there is more to you story, a part b, or c or even all the way to z of your puzzle, none of that really matters because you get clarity. You understand that while you may not now nor ever truely know what happened to make all those pieces come together and fit so perfectly, it doesnt give you any pause at all. You are standing in the grace that goes beyond all understanding.
Two years ago I met a friend. She tells me often how great a friend I am to her. She is the type of friend that I can see her every day, or once a month and the emotion is the same. We have fun, laugh, act crazy and just generally have a freaking amazing time.
The first night we met was one of those moments of grace. I knew somehow our lives were going to be focusing on this first nigt. I knew that some part of the future was hinged around the conversation at that table when it seemed like no one else was in the room.
I have the utmost respect for her talents, her story, her life. I have the kowledge that no matter where I go or what happens in my life, she will be there...just a phone call away. She is a true friend. I can say anything, everything or nothing and the feeling is the same.
I do not fear that one day I will wake up and she will be setting about to undo me, that she will be working on taking something away. Every time she is in my physical presence it is an act of making my life better.
Her story which I won't tell much of here, is much like many of ours. There is joy, harship, pain and grief. There are children and jobs and family members driving her crazy all the while validating her existence. There are fights, wins and losses. And there are the moments in life....where she has been able to just be.
Two years ago when she and I met, I set myself on a mission to help her make her goal a reality. I have struggled, begged, pleaded and forced moments trying to make it happen. I have given her my ideas and suggestions and reached out to those I thought would be able to help. I have prayed and tried to find a WAY to make it work.
But only moments...no great success...just ticks on the clock and the return to just doing the next thing.
As the days have passed by and other people have come into my life, I began to see parts of the puzzle coming together, and I have often thought I will know. I will see a moment of clarity when all the pieces will be sitting at the table together and we as a great cohesive force will move the dream into the next realm of possibility. It just so happens that the table was round. And that 8 pieces of the puzzle that night were there. I soon began to understand that the reason things had not come together is because I didn't have all the pieces or even the right ones. I had to let some go, send some away and go and get new ones.And even though some of those original pieces are missing from time to time, the puzzle can still be whole.
The most amazing part of this story is this....we are all connected. We as a wonderful mass of human experience are all living moments when we can choose to participate, or be upset because it is someone elses story. We will have the priveledge to witness the great creative forces moving mountains to make the puzzle whole. There will be a recognition that all the visualizing and all the hopes and all the wrong moments have brought you forward to the very second where you are sitting and your puzzle is complete.
And even though you know there is more to you story, a part b, or c or even all the way to z of your puzzle, none of that really matters because you get clarity. You understand that while you may not now nor ever truely know what happened to make all those pieces come together and fit so perfectly, it doesnt give you any pause at all. You are standing in the grace that goes beyond all understanding.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
What i write I mean, what I say I believe, what I feel i share, what I do shows I care
I do not offer you sympathy although I will listen to your woes, I do not have any pity, because I know how the story really goes.
Someone asked me recently how I became so wise, and while I had to think for a minute to understand that someone think me wise, in an instant I knew to say thanks to all those who had given me trials to overcome, lies to realise were untrue and other gifts that most would rather not get. But in the outcome of all those unwanted but accepted hurts, it has taught me to fear no one, but to see each for who they really are. I do not doubt my instincts, but I also know that at each threat I have a choice to give in or continue to live with integrity and faith that all things are to the good. Attack me if you must, but you can never take what is mine. Because when you grab that which you did not create, it is only with you as long as you can learn to hate it and then it is taken from you. I see you, those who would come to take away that which I have created and that you covet. Come and grab all you can...I will create more. Steal away whatever you think you must have. I will not fear your thievery, because I know. I know the laws. I have seen them work over and over again. I can tell you the stories of many who have tried, and yet here I stand. As happy with my life as ever. Not only sure of my place in this world but confident enough in my blessings to even work towards you finding yours. I am excited for the changes that are coming soon, and fast. I am creating this life, writing my story so that each desire becomes part of this reality, until the world is just the place we all want to live, in peace and love and amazing creative energy.
Sometimes I get accused of being mean, and this shocking but still baffeling revelation is something I cannot understand. Our society seems to have embraced this notion that if I feel sympathy and sorrow for others that that will somehow make their battle easier. That lowering my vibrational serenity to live in their creation of woe, will some how lighten their load. I totally understand that while someone is in the throws of the misery, that I cannot say or do anything that will give relief, nor can I become sorroful enough to make them begin to heal. I will embrace empathy for those who are suffering, but I also have been educated on the fact that every situation in our lives, and I mean every one, is meant to be a part of the story which validates our journey here. If it were not so, there would not be any reason for any of this. What is the point if it all ends up in nothing anyway? The driving force of human nature is that we seek happiness, fulftilment, and creation. Whether it be life, money or drama...our creative being thrives on the creation of any of it. Yes even the bad stuff...because it adds to our understanding of the human experience.
Believing that everything has to be perfect for me to be happy is like living life on a treadmill. The limited pace of being able to vary the speed and the unchanging scenery would not only get boring, it would lead us to find a way to stop walking if it meant the treadmill is all we could ever do. Life is sacred, every life. It has value whether it lasts a minute or 100 years. Saying that life must be perfect before it has value is the biggest diservice that can ever be paid. It also sets up the biggest lie every purposed....each life is already perfect. Each and every life that touches mine adds to it just as all the interaction polishes yours. The judgement that we have all learned to live by having our belief that only the good stuff is good and all the bad stuff is bad, has taken away part of the joy-ality that life can be.
If having every material item we long for was the only thing we believe would bring happiness, then how could those who live in abject poverty not have already given up and quit the journey? If being on the list of the richest in the world was the ending of misery, how is that we still hear of people who have millions, fame and more than most will ever see, can still decide to end their trip?
It is because we have not done a great job at educating our fellow travelers on the meaning and purpose of their journey. Tribes and ancient civilizations used to perform coming of age ceremonies and some still do I am sure. These lessons of life, hunting, and other practices were preparing the next generation for the journey. We as Americans have trivialized our understanding to school, college and organized religion. We have forgotten the most important lessons.
We ae all connected-period. We are all creative energy-period. We are all going to check out of this reality with the understanding that someone forgot to share along the way-period. The Ahh-ha moment will reveal the reasons for the journey, the lessons grabbed along the way and the rejoining to the creative universe that awaits our awakening. PERIOD-EXCLAMATION POINT!!!!!
We have been lead to the dumbing down of humans. The trivializtion of our power. The mis-represntation of why we are here, and much more. We have been given busy work while the lessons are being learned, but the outcome is always the same. The reason many say that our lives flash before our eyes as we start the check out process is so that we can see those moments that were given to us to make a cellular change in our consciousness. Stop for a minute and replay your life...do you see those moments? They are probably the same as mine, those pivotal seconds where the life as you know it changed forever---when actually it just changed so that your forever would be right.
I do not share these thoughts so that you can think me crazy, nor do I hope that I will convice you that you are wrong. While there are people who will create and pass through their life by creating wrongs, it is still always the same ending. And it will ultimately be the ending we decide on. There is no wrong way to live this life. Please play however you see fit. Cause harm and damage as you travel along if you so choose. Those who long to see that and are busy creating those paths will welcome you and play along to get their cellular changes as well. Or set about your path creating light and love and peace to all those you pass by. I seek to create and attract those who are like minded, but occassionaly I also understand that my thoughts will allow those in who have less than honorable motives to share my space. When they show up, I can shed the tears of dissappointment, and then head back in my direction and wish them well hanging on to my grade---pass or fail I still get move to the next level.
Sometimes as I write these blogs, I am reminded that I do not always know where the words come from. I am however eternally grateful for those who helped me pull out of the drama that was my life before. I am sure that all those lessons were necessary, but dang was I slow on the learning curve. I held to those beliefs that had been gifted me and I hung tightly. I did not understand that we each get to decide what it is we will get out of this life and that which we will add to it. We can stay with those hand me down understandings and stay tied to a life that someone else believes we should live. We can refuse to look to those moments that could change us on a cellular level or we can just recite the old cliches such as "Life is hard" Life is not fair" "Good guys finsish last" "only the good die Young" bla, blah , blah. Our lives are meant for us to seek the answers, and they are meant for us to enjoy....well actually to enjoy or not but its still our choice.
At the end of the day or the finish of the play, know that it is important to write what you mean, say what you believe and share what you feel. There will always be those who are the journey with you and those who are not. But I wouldn't have it any other way. I love this life and I love most that I have learned my lessons and I can see the real that is in front of me...whether it be the good or bad. Oh and by the way I have stopped labeling it that way too...it just IS what it IS. REAL
Someone asked me recently how I became so wise, and while I had to think for a minute to understand that someone think me wise, in an instant I knew to say thanks to all those who had given me trials to overcome, lies to realise were untrue and other gifts that most would rather not get. But in the outcome of all those unwanted but accepted hurts, it has taught me to fear no one, but to see each for who they really are. I do not doubt my instincts, but I also know that at each threat I have a choice to give in or continue to live with integrity and faith that all things are to the good. Attack me if you must, but you can never take what is mine. Because when you grab that which you did not create, it is only with you as long as you can learn to hate it and then it is taken from you. I see you, those who would come to take away that which I have created and that you covet. Come and grab all you can...I will create more. Steal away whatever you think you must have. I will not fear your thievery, because I know. I know the laws. I have seen them work over and over again. I can tell you the stories of many who have tried, and yet here I stand. As happy with my life as ever. Not only sure of my place in this world but confident enough in my blessings to even work towards you finding yours. I am excited for the changes that are coming soon, and fast. I am creating this life, writing my story so that each desire becomes part of this reality, until the world is just the place we all want to live, in peace and love and amazing creative energy.
Sometimes I get accused of being mean, and this shocking but still baffeling revelation is something I cannot understand. Our society seems to have embraced this notion that if I feel sympathy and sorrow for others that that will somehow make their battle easier. That lowering my vibrational serenity to live in their creation of woe, will some how lighten their load. I totally understand that while someone is in the throws of the misery, that I cannot say or do anything that will give relief, nor can I become sorroful enough to make them begin to heal. I will embrace empathy for those who are suffering, but I also have been educated on the fact that every situation in our lives, and I mean every one, is meant to be a part of the story which validates our journey here. If it were not so, there would not be any reason for any of this. What is the point if it all ends up in nothing anyway? The driving force of human nature is that we seek happiness, fulftilment, and creation. Whether it be life, money or drama...our creative being thrives on the creation of any of it. Yes even the bad stuff...because it adds to our understanding of the human experience.
Believing that everything has to be perfect for me to be happy is like living life on a treadmill. The limited pace of being able to vary the speed and the unchanging scenery would not only get boring, it would lead us to find a way to stop walking if it meant the treadmill is all we could ever do. Life is sacred, every life. It has value whether it lasts a minute or 100 years. Saying that life must be perfect before it has value is the biggest diservice that can ever be paid. It also sets up the biggest lie every purposed....each life is already perfect. Each and every life that touches mine adds to it just as all the interaction polishes yours. The judgement that we have all learned to live by having our belief that only the good stuff is good and all the bad stuff is bad, has taken away part of the joy-ality that life can be.
If having every material item we long for was the only thing we believe would bring happiness, then how could those who live in abject poverty not have already given up and quit the journey? If being on the list of the richest in the world was the ending of misery, how is that we still hear of people who have millions, fame and more than most will ever see, can still decide to end their trip?
It is because we have not done a great job at educating our fellow travelers on the meaning and purpose of their journey. Tribes and ancient civilizations used to perform coming of age ceremonies and some still do I am sure. These lessons of life, hunting, and other practices were preparing the next generation for the journey. We as Americans have trivialized our understanding to school, college and organized religion. We have forgotten the most important lessons.
We ae all connected-period. We are all creative energy-period. We are all going to check out of this reality with the understanding that someone forgot to share along the way-period. The Ahh-ha moment will reveal the reasons for the journey, the lessons grabbed along the way and the rejoining to the creative universe that awaits our awakening. PERIOD-EXCLAMATION POINT!!!!!
We have been lead to the dumbing down of humans. The trivializtion of our power. The mis-represntation of why we are here, and much more. We have been given busy work while the lessons are being learned, but the outcome is always the same. The reason many say that our lives flash before our eyes as we start the check out process is so that we can see those moments that were given to us to make a cellular change in our consciousness. Stop for a minute and replay your life...do you see those moments? They are probably the same as mine, those pivotal seconds where the life as you know it changed forever---when actually it just changed so that your forever would be right.
I do not share these thoughts so that you can think me crazy, nor do I hope that I will convice you that you are wrong. While there are people who will create and pass through their life by creating wrongs, it is still always the same ending. And it will ultimately be the ending we decide on. There is no wrong way to live this life. Please play however you see fit. Cause harm and damage as you travel along if you so choose. Those who long to see that and are busy creating those paths will welcome you and play along to get their cellular changes as well. Or set about your path creating light and love and peace to all those you pass by. I seek to create and attract those who are like minded, but occassionaly I also understand that my thoughts will allow those in who have less than honorable motives to share my space. When they show up, I can shed the tears of dissappointment, and then head back in my direction and wish them well hanging on to my grade---pass or fail I still get move to the next level.
Sometimes as I write these blogs, I am reminded that I do not always know where the words come from. I am however eternally grateful for those who helped me pull out of the drama that was my life before. I am sure that all those lessons were necessary, but dang was I slow on the learning curve. I held to those beliefs that had been gifted me and I hung tightly. I did not understand that we each get to decide what it is we will get out of this life and that which we will add to it. We can stay with those hand me down understandings and stay tied to a life that someone else believes we should live. We can refuse to look to those moments that could change us on a cellular level or we can just recite the old cliches such as "Life is hard" Life is not fair" "Good guys finsish last" "only the good die Young" bla, blah , blah. Our lives are meant for us to seek the answers, and they are meant for us to enjoy....well actually to enjoy or not but its still our choice.
At the end of the day or the finish of the play, know that it is important to write what you mean, say what you believe and share what you feel. There will always be those who are the journey with you and those who are not. But I wouldn't have it any other way. I love this life and I love most that I have learned my lessons and I can see the real that is in front of me...whether it be the good or bad. Oh and by the way I have stopped labeling it that way too...it just IS what it IS. REAL
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Hardest, best, worst and more
Hardest lesson I ever learned, is that the way my life has turned out was all because of me.
Sometimes it is easier to sit and feel sorry for oneself because life is hard, or seems unfair or just any part of the poor me routine. But when I get real honest, and I mean REAL and honest, I can trace back every tough moment to a decision that I made. I can see a lesson in each trial that came my way. I can see where things might have been better had I chosen another path. No one is sitting anywhere in this universe punishing me for anything real or imagined. No one is picking on me because I am not perfect. Nope, there is no way to jusify any of the things that I didn't like in this life other than to recognize I made each and every choice. And while this can be a heavy blow to take, it is also the start to writing a whole new story. It means that if I am responsible, and each time things turn in a direction that isn't exactly what I had hoped for, I can recognize the person in charge and change directions. Most times its just a quieting of those not good enough voices and then recognition for the one to credit or blame and a seeking to understand the lesson.
The worst lesson I ever learned, is that bad people show up because my actions were not inline with my beliefs.
Those who seek to unseat only show up briefly, and only usually play a minor roll of reminding me of the things I do not want. This doesn't mean when those lesson people show up that I am supposed to give them direction or try to fix them. The most amazing part of this education is that when I got this part figured out, the majority of those who show up have the same mission, or are looking for it. They come to co-create the good stuff and help to bring more joy, love and peace to my reality. They are attracted here, because the law of attraction says that which is likened to itself is drawn. When I am feeling out of sorts it is because I have drifted into one of the fear based emotional days and I can recognize and move out of it as fast as I found myself there...or NOT.
Best lesson I have learned, is that the rest of my life is all up to me.
Once I came to the understanding that I get to direct this life and make choices that are about honoring my beliefs, sticking to the path I hope to take and accomplishing those things on my list, it got amazingly easy to get the lessons, good or bad. It became clear and I am able to see those who show up with less than honorable motives. But also accepting responsibility for my life, my joy and my lot, also gives me permission to build on it whatever I choose. As I get my compass headed in my true north, those who wish to be a part of my success show up. They are busy loving and living in their passion, and I can play a part in their fun. They are inspiring and giving freely so that I can gain strength and hope from their success. They are offering me acceptance and love with ease and no requirements except that I be a part of the joy. This life is not meant to be a horrible thing that we survive, it is meant to give us opportunities to attract whatever our heart seeks to experience. When bad stuff shows up, I need only to check my compass, and decide if I was heading in my true north direction or had I drifted off course. Spending a little time to clear my thougths, visit my blog~erapy and redefine my direction is usually all it takes to move past those days.
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If all these lessons are true, and in my life I believe that they are, I must only thank those who showed up to help me "get" them. I accept the responsibility for the lesson and give credit to the one who attracted it (me!). And I move on to the next moment of working towards what I want to see in my life. I can find joy, understanding, hope and a lesson in almost every moment, and most surely in every day. It's not always easy, living in a place where I get all the blame or credit. It's not always fun doing my homework and getting the lesson of the day. But I wouldn't have it any other way. Once I got the lessons that kept showing up, it meant that it was time to move onto another class, a graduation of sorts to a higher understanding. A path that shows me that I have nothing to fear, no one to lose, and everything to accomplish. It brought about a degree in creating that which I want to see in my reality. An ability to instantly forgive and move past any moment that didn't feel like it was honoring my life. It also means that I am no longer a vicitim of anyones malice or that I have nothing or anyone to fear. We get to ride the path we choose and if it ends badly then I have the chance to either choose better next time, or I can just keep doing what I did and keep getting what I got.
I also appreciate getting to see those who are still in the lessons I have already learned phase. They are still working towards getting the lessons in their own life class or not, there is no thing that says anyone has to be on a path of understanding. Life is to be lived at whatever level of consciousness you choose. There is no you got to do it this way or else, free will says that we not only choose the path we choose but also the time we come to understanding. Some seek it in every moment, some jump to the end of the story and try to read the ending first, others just take it a day at a time and will get their lessons one way or another. I love the path of least resistance. I treasure getting to go with the flow and see things for the lessons that they are, good, hard or best. There is no right or wrong, must or must not, no shame or blame. It is all in the education, and the pace we decide to run the race. There is no evil or punisher, we are attracting all that is, whether we belive so or not.
Once I understood that it was always, always, always my fault, choice, credit or blame....it got easier to be in the class and easier to get all A's.
Sometimes it is easier to sit and feel sorry for oneself because life is hard, or seems unfair or just any part of the poor me routine. But when I get real honest, and I mean REAL and honest, I can trace back every tough moment to a decision that I made. I can see a lesson in each trial that came my way. I can see where things might have been better had I chosen another path. No one is sitting anywhere in this universe punishing me for anything real or imagined. No one is picking on me because I am not perfect. Nope, there is no way to jusify any of the things that I didn't like in this life other than to recognize I made each and every choice. And while this can be a heavy blow to take, it is also the start to writing a whole new story. It means that if I am responsible, and each time things turn in a direction that isn't exactly what I had hoped for, I can recognize the person in charge and change directions. Most times its just a quieting of those not good enough voices and then recognition for the one to credit or blame and a seeking to understand the lesson.
The worst lesson I ever learned, is that bad people show up because my actions were not inline with my beliefs.
Those who seek to unseat only show up briefly, and only usually play a minor roll of reminding me of the things I do not want. This doesn't mean when those lesson people show up that I am supposed to give them direction or try to fix them. The most amazing part of this education is that when I got this part figured out, the majority of those who show up have the same mission, or are looking for it. They come to co-create the good stuff and help to bring more joy, love and peace to my reality. They are attracted here, because the law of attraction says that which is likened to itself is drawn. When I am feeling out of sorts it is because I have drifted into one of the fear based emotional days and I can recognize and move out of it as fast as I found myself there...or NOT.
Best lesson I have learned, is that the rest of my life is all up to me.
Once I came to the understanding that I get to direct this life and make choices that are about honoring my beliefs, sticking to the path I hope to take and accomplishing those things on my list, it got amazingly easy to get the lessons, good or bad. It became clear and I am able to see those who show up with less than honorable motives. But also accepting responsibility for my life, my joy and my lot, also gives me permission to build on it whatever I choose. As I get my compass headed in my true north, those who wish to be a part of my success show up. They are busy loving and living in their passion, and I can play a part in their fun. They are inspiring and giving freely so that I can gain strength and hope from their success. They are offering me acceptance and love with ease and no requirements except that I be a part of the joy. This life is not meant to be a horrible thing that we survive, it is meant to give us opportunities to attract whatever our heart seeks to experience. When bad stuff shows up, I need only to check my compass, and decide if I was heading in my true north direction or had I drifted off course. Spending a little time to clear my thougths, visit my blog~erapy and redefine my direction is usually all it takes to move past those days.
More
If all these lessons are true, and in my life I believe that they are, I must only thank those who showed up to help me "get" them. I accept the responsibility for the lesson and give credit to the one who attracted it (me!). And I move on to the next moment of working towards what I want to see in my life. I can find joy, understanding, hope and a lesson in almost every moment, and most surely in every day. It's not always easy, living in a place where I get all the blame or credit. It's not always fun doing my homework and getting the lesson of the day. But I wouldn't have it any other way. Once I got the lessons that kept showing up, it meant that it was time to move onto another class, a graduation of sorts to a higher understanding. A path that shows me that I have nothing to fear, no one to lose, and everything to accomplish. It brought about a degree in creating that which I want to see in my reality. An ability to instantly forgive and move past any moment that didn't feel like it was honoring my life. It also means that I am no longer a vicitim of anyones malice or that I have nothing or anyone to fear. We get to ride the path we choose and if it ends badly then I have the chance to either choose better next time, or I can just keep doing what I did and keep getting what I got.
I also appreciate getting to see those who are still in the lessons I have already learned phase. They are still working towards getting the lessons in their own life class or not, there is no thing that says anyone has to be on a path of understanding. Life is to be lived at whatever level of consciousness you choose. There is no you got to do it this way or else, free will says that we not only choose the path we choose but also the time we come to understanding. Some seek it in every moment, some jump to the end of the story and try to read the ending first, others just take it a day at a time and will get their lessons one way or another. I love the path of least resistance. I treasure getting to go with the flow and see things for the lessons that they are, good, hard or best. There is no right or wrong, must or must not, no shame or blame. It is all in the education, and the pace we decide to run the race. There is no evil or punisher, we are attracting all that is, whether we belive so or not.
Once I understood that it was always, always, always my fault, choice, credit or blame....it got easier to be in the class and easier to get all A's.
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