where you feel safe enough to just be, when you know the reason for struggles, and you feel an utter sense of grace....they need a check in button for that place!!! Its a great spot--been there a few times, most recently as now!! (facebook post 8-30-2011)
Two years ago I met a friend. She tells me often how great a friend I am to her. She is the type of friend that I can see her every day, or once a month and the emotion is the same. We have fun, laugh, act crazy and just generally have a freaking amazing time.
The first night we met was one of those moments of grace. I knew somehow our lives were going to be focusing on this first nigt. I knew that some part of the future was hinged around the conversation at that table when it seemed like no one else was in the room.
I have the utmost respect for her talents, her story, her life. I have the kowledge that no matter where I go or what happens in my life, she will be there...just a phone call away. She is a true friend. I can say anything, everything or nothing and the feeling is the same.
I do not fear that one day I will wake up and she will be setting about to undo me, that she will be working on taking something away. Every time she is in my physical presence it is an act of making my life better.
Her story which I won't tell much of here, is much like many of ours. There is joy, harship, pain and grief. There are children and jobs and family members driving her crazy all the while validating her existence. There are fights, wins and losses. And there are the moments in life....where she has been able to just be.
Two years ago when she and I met, I set myself on a mission to help her make her goal a reality. I have struggled, begged, pleaded and forced moments trying to make it happen. I have given her my ideas and suggestions and reached out to those I thought would be able to help. I have prayed and tried to find a WAY to make it work.
But only moments...no great success...just ticks on the clock and the return to just doing the next thing.
As the days have passed by and other people have come into my life, I began to see parts of the puzzle coming together, and I have often thought I will know. I will see a moment of clarity when all the pieces will be sitting at the table together and we as a great cohesive force will move the dream into the next realm of possibility. It just so happens that the table was round. And that 8 pieces of the puzzle that night were there. I soon began to understand that the reason things had not come together is because I didn't have all the pieces or even the right ones. I had to let some go, send some away and go and get new ones.And even though some of those original pieces are missing from time to time, the puzzle can still be whole.
The most amazing part of this story is this....we are all connected. We as a wonderful mass of human experience are all living moments when we can choose to participate, or be upset because it is someone elses story. We will have the priveledge to witness the great creative forces moving mountains to make the puzzle whole. There will be a recognition that all the visualizing and all the hopes and all the wrong moments have brought you forward to the very second where you are sitting and your puzzle is complete.
And even though you know there is more to you story, a part b, or c or even all the way to z of your puzzle, none of that really matters because you get clarity. You understand that while you may not now nor ever truely know what happened to make all those pieces come together and fit so perfectly, it doesnt give you any pause at all. You are standing in the grace that goes beyond all understanding.
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