A week of ups and downs, back to fronts and clouds that finally seem to be lifting

Not sure why, but there has been a cloud hanging over my week -literally and figuratively. So much contrast --ups--downs--happys --sads and back to fronts. I have had to watch myself to keep level and allow all that was meant for me, but the constant motion has left me a little sea-sick. Thank you to some special friends who always SEE me, know me and keep me real and others who love me no matter my mood. My skies are clearing and I hear the weather is going to improve also!!

Over the last week, the opportunities have been off the hook...seriously. I should with every passing moment be stuck on bliss. But some of the opportunities were so tied up in my expectations that I got a little twisted. I have to work through yet another hiccup in the journey to better. I was faced with some interactions with folks I have never met and their journey inspired and shrank me at the same time. I began to wonder if faced with their life challenges would I have been so strong.

I witnessed others who seemed to be stuck in the moment where their lives were guiding light for others, but all they could see and relive was the tragedy that changed everyone's destiny. I also was the recipient of a sort of gift, blessing that took me so by surprise I had to reevaluate the relationship that brought it about. I also had another relationship that didn't appear to ever have any trouble and it disintegrated right before my eyes. I had to stop and think...why? And no answer came. I was told by a few that they had seen the defect in the person from a distance, and I had not heeded the warning.

I have to realize that the lessons are often tough to take, but all necessary to get me where I am to go. I also must learn that putting people in a box marked good or bad only leads me to have to learn more. There is good even in the worst of us and bad it every good person too. Looking for the good will always be my first option, but understanding all that comes with caring for others is my ultimate goal. I must also be open to the hurt when I am disappointed by someone I care for, and cling to loving them even at the moment I most remove them from the inner circle to work on damage control.

Blog~erapy has been such a saving space for me. A place where I can write my way through this type of week. A place where I can share and those who care to can comment or just read. I appreciate my writing me to well place, it's the best therapy I have ever had.