Its all in the findings

I think up until recently I was still a bit shocked when a day came full of a varied range of emotions. I think some where along the life path, I had fooled myself into thinking that a good day meant everything had to be good. In reality I have come to understand that it really means I just have to find the good in everything in that day for it to be great. Today is one of those days. Well actually it's more just a culmination of emotions from several days. Friday while I was being excited and grateful to be on the end of my countdown for Christmas vacation, my reality was rocked by a senseless act of cruelty. But even as I adjusted to the shock of this tragedy, I was busy sharing time in our workshop with our clients and getting decorations done. I spent lunch at Lion's Club hearing from a passionate Red Cross employee who works to help our neighbors in need. I heard from a dear friend some kind words she shared for me. I said see ya laters to my work family, and had and amazing night with some of my favorite friends. See what I mean? All over the emotional map. Saturday lots of time with my grands and Sunday some precious time with my youngest.

Today was no different. I was disappointed in the turnout for a meeting I was facilitating, but had the chance to share time with one of my favorite people and have lunch with her...And overwhelmingly grateful for learning of a huge donation for my agency. I was thrilled to have the opportunity to visit with a great fundraising group in Ft. Worth, who is prepared to assist us in bringing their program to Johnson County. I was insulted and accused of something I did not do...and I was given peace and kindness at meditation group to end my day. I had the opportunity to stand up for what I thought was right, share what I knew to be true and forgive those who were wrong.

Now in some of that it is not hard to see the good...but I assure you it is in everything. Watching and hearing of heroics during tragedy, learning about amazing generosity, coming to understand how mean and cruel some people can be....and totally wrong also.

I have learned to see the good in most things. I have also learned to accept that when I am angry it is not a disservice to my life. It just means that I have an opportunity to work through the emotions and maybe practice or pretend to through some THING out a window. I get that I am not perfect, but I refuse to allow others to throw their judgement in my face without understanding I make decisions based on what I believe to be right and true. And while you may want to convince me I am wrong, most of the time I have done my homework...or have learned to simply let it go.

I am grateful for all that added or took away from my day, because
i work to find the good---and most always find it I do.